Monday, October 08, 2007
emotions run wild.
&& After so long, we finally made contact. But why must I be the one to say 'Hi'?
I was talking to him on MSN just now. It feels like a decade has passed between us both. We both made small talk, regarding our studies now, climate in the two different countries that we live in, and how we both had changed over the years. I didn't expect you to have a girlfriend. In fact, I didn't know until you told me. Sigh. I reacted the way I hope to have reacted. And I know you are very happy with her. I sincerely wish you both all the best. (:
I didn't sleep the whole night. Not that I have something on my mind, but that I really can't sleep. I don't want to rely on medications to make me feel sleepy. Rather, I prefer to let my body work until it is totally worn out, then I can have my good and proper sleep. Yupp. Even now, I still don't feel sleepy. Sigh. I'm ruining myself, and I don't know why.
take me away, from here. to a place where we belong.
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11:14 AM
Monday, September 10, 2007
love, purely
When two one-winged angels meet, the most wonderful feelings in the world are the moments when you feel your heart smiling for the first time, or you experience the truth of a lover's kiss. It could be a first embrace and the feeling of two hearts beating as one, or the sound of three little words whispered into your ear. The spirit soars, everything has its meaning, the heart opens and happiness enters.
By Silas Khua, 22nd July 2007, 2359hrs
People often ask, what is the definition of soul mates. Is it the similarities? Or the differences that attracts? Is it the character of the other person? Or the facial features that stole my heart? Honestly, there is no answer to it. When you meet your soul mate, in your heart, you just know. It's a feeling of you meeting your other half. And he or she makes you whole.
By Prisca Lai, 10th September 2007, 0445hrs
Hope this inspires you my darling daughter, Lizzie. (:
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1:15 PM
Friday, September 07, 2007
for you, girlfriend
BESTY!
She's my best friend, be it in drama or in real life. My confidant, counselor and girlfriend. My inspiration and even my muse at times. Yupp. We have supposedly knew each other for 53 days, but honestly, it feels like I have known her for a lifetime. She understands me very well and showers me with loving words daily. Times when I am down, she will be there. When I cry, she cries with me. She's a very nice person, honestly, and I love her a lot. Yes, I love her! (: She is a very good friend to have around you. And remember, her birthday is on the 12th of September! Hahas. She goes mad with me on sleepless nights, with us both high on drama. I treat her as my daughter, seriously. Yeah. Ask her about it. Hahas. Gosh. There's so much I want to say, but can't express out in words.
Thanks Lizzie. For being a friend. For crying with me that day at my grandfather's funeral. For listening to my problems. For counseling me. For being my besty. For the loving words. For the late night calls. For the nerding. For the teddy bear pouch. For waiting for me to go to drama classes together. For the constant flow of messages, to show me that I matter to you. For being there when he's was not around. For singing High School Musical songs with me. For being the scriptwriter. For teaching me the dance steps, though now I OFFICIALLY don't need to dance. For the window shopping. For discussing about our prince charmings. For the correction of my bad english. For everything and anything. Most importantly, thank you Lizzie, for loving me. I love you besty. And this post is dedicated to you. (:
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3:10 PM
Wednesday, September 05, 2007
wrath.
The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus - Your Guardian Angel
When I see your smile
Tears roll down my face
I can't replace
And now that I'm strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me, I can be the one
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
It's ok, It's ok, It's ok
Seasons are changing and waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
Cause you're my
You're my
My true love
My whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cause I'm here, for you
Please don't walk away and
Please tell me you'll stay, stay...
Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
Love gives you courage, being loved gives you strength.
My wrath is bubbling under.
BEWARE, the evil trio.
Prisca is on a killing rampage.
It's been hard on you both Liz and Caleb.
Sigh.
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4:04 PM
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
爱在遥远的距离
When it's not alright ,
When it's not ok ,
Will you try to make me feel better?
Will you say alright?
Will you say ok?
Will you stick with me through whatever?
Or run away.
This is kind of an emotional post. As usual. I don't know why, but I noticed that I'm pretty emotional lately. Hmms. Maybe it's because of my family? Or my ever busting phone bill? Sigh. Guess the amount I have to pay for my phone bill. It's a freaking 220 plus bucks! I bust by like, 190 over bucks can?! Impressive record. Ha ha ha ha ha.... ha. So not funny can. Sigh.
I don't know what's wrong with me. All I know is that my life is not perfect. I understand that no one's life can be perfect, even in the Sims 2 game. But can't I strive for it? Everyone wants to have a fairy tale ending, a happily ever after ending to their story. Is it too much to ask for? I am not greedy. I just want a happy life. That's all. I am not so complex or that materialistic. Money won't buy me the life I yearn for. Why do people like reading me so much? Giving comments based on worthless accusations. Yes, they don't hurt me anymore, but still it's not nice knowing such stuff. Jokes are meant for laughing. If you all want to take it so seriously, fine. I apologise. Sigh. Like I said before, I am not difficult to decipher. It's all a matter of you getting to know me better or not. Argh. I sick of explaining myself like this.
Drama was cool today. I re-wrote my part of the script. Watched the rest learn the dance. Slept on Vince's right bicep. Practiced with the real Isaac and Dominique. Got both their stamp of approval. And I was loving every minute of it! Yupp. It just lifted my spirits and mood. I have to admit, I'm really down since the passing of my beloved grandfather. But I know people have to move on. Sigh. I miss you grandfather.
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1:09 AM
Sunday, August 26, 2007
love, actually.
My BESTY, my DARHLING and WD BRYAN are all hooked by on the topic of LOVE. Think it's time I blogged about my views of love.
1st Corinthians 13:8
Love never fails.
Love in it's purest form is from God.
To me, I believe that love originated from God.
'For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son.'
Yupp.
If God didn't love me, I won't even be here now.
I admit.
My second boyfriend dumped me during my secondary two period.
And the trauma of it made me so distracted that for the first time, I actually failed my English test.
That was when I broke down and cried.
And thereafter, I went into depression.
Self-mutilation was a routine.
Over dosing on drugs was a form of escape.
Sitting on the window pane looking out into the world was a form of delusion.
Half tempted to jump, I
I couldn't see the light in front of the tunnel.
But God saved me.
My church members brought me the light.
Through His healing grace, I found myself back again.
I OD so many times.
I lost count halfway there.
If my abba Father did not bother stretching His mighty hand out to preserve my life.
I won't even be able to see my eighteen birthday come to pass.
Or join the WD production.
Love is forgiveness.
Love is sacrifice.
Love is giving time for another.
Love is putting others before self.
Love is wiping the tears and bringing the smile.
Love, actually is a gift from God for everyone.
To make life beautiful.
To put colors in a black and white painting.
To be the rainbow after the rain.
And what LIZZIE says is true.
A lady in love really glows.
Yes, I've noticed. (:
I cried my eyes out when my grandfather passed on.
I choose to sacrifice my holiday to take care of him.
I stayed with my grandmother to look after her.
Despite my tests and school schedule.
I hugged Liz whenever I feel I should.
No matter where and what time it is.
I stay up to wait for my sister.
No because I have to but because I want to.
Is this love?
Yes.
I learnt it from my abba Father.
Thank you Daddy.
For this gift of love from above.
'Forever I will sing of Your love.'
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12:25 AM
BESTY!